Open letter about the situation....

It is up and down right now. I am pretty sure that you remember how it is when you don't have money anymore and things are just tightening up.

I know that I am not the only person suffering right now, but I think I lost more than others... at least from my perspective.

If the Hawaii deal would have worked, I would have probably have something at least similar to be looking forward to than I had with Silver State.

For the last 9 years I have been working on one goal and one goal only, and that was to become a good teacher and pilot. And it happened that I became one for Silver State Helicopters. At the time, the best helicopter school in the world in my opinion.

It took me 5 years to find it... well, I actually had to wait for it to exist, because by the time I wanted to transition from Stunts to Flying, SSH didn't even exist. 

I lived for this and only this......

I did what ever I had to do.... to become part of that operation... 

but, the fact that it was all for nothing, is something that I find myself having great trouble with.

I don't want to work for just anybody in this industry. I don't want to work for people I cannot trust. 

That's why I was proud to work for Silver State, for Jerry, for Michael and Yvette and Reed and Travis.

I was proud to work with hundreds of individuals who shared the same dream. The dream of a better life, the dream of flight. 

I am exhausted and depressed that all my work has not paid off to be part of something extraordinary anymore.

I am so close to just throw everything away. My spirit is broken... although don't worry, I am working on a new one an even better one... I ain't a quitter, that's for sure.

Ever since my bankruptcy in 2003, I have not been late on a single bill. I have a perfect payment history. I wanted to make things right again in my life. 

But now, I am deeper in financial shit than ever.... 

It took me 5 years to get my credit score up again. 

Another 5 years and I would actually qualify for decent loans etc.... to be able to buy and maintain, for example, something as simple as a good car, so the ones I can buy would actually stop falling off my ass around every corner I take ;-) 

But no, I am facing shit again..... I am sick and tired of it. No health insurance, credit score plummeting, and the next late payment is just around the corner. 

Friends who are willing to help me will eventually run out of patience with me.

I did everything right.... I did everything I could. 

This was the first time in my life that I refused to except that I couldn't fulfill my dreams just because I don't have the money. 

I had no boundaries, I wanted to get a chance to show how I can work and show how much I could contribute and be part of something so great. 

it was easy this time.... since I knew why and what I did it for. A company never seen in the history of helicopters. A company that actually gave a real opportunity to the ones who where willing to seize it. An honest, fair deal to get more than you could ever bargain for as a helicopter pilot. 

This deal began to turn sour at the end of 2006. That's where they changed the student contracts. 

That's where Jerry sold his company out to a false and fraudulent concept in my opinion.

This time it was a no brainer to go all out..... to go for broke again. 

It was easy to work 80 hours a week, to be on my knees scrubbing the floor and being happy about it. 

Since this time, I was already on the other side of the fence... the side of the fence where the helicopters were ;-)

Ok, now I can say it... after ground school when everybody had left, I actually sat in the helicopters  and flew them around the hangar. I remember doing this with the race cars in the shop I worked for when I was an aspiring race car driver back in Germany.

And yes... I made the sound of them while dry flying them.... I knew you would ask that. ;-)

Even if I wouldn't have gotten a chance to fly for another 3 years, I would have still cleaned the offices and hangar floors and took out the darn trash..... Sweeping that hangar floor cost me my back that's for sure.... 

I did what ever it took to make this happen.

I am not willing to do whatever it takes anymore. 

Going out to Hawaii was necessary, since I didn't want to have to tell myself that I didn't do everything I can to be part of their operation. 

But other than that.... as far as I am concerned..

Silver State was my everything... my family, my home, my protection... my pride. 

This has all been taken away from me and from us all.... 

Sincerely 

Olli